el-oh-vee-eee

Whenever we heard the word ‘love’, we tend to associate it to the romantic feeling happening between two people. We started to imagine how eventful their first meeting was, the countless dates that follow after that, the anniversaries celebrated, the gifts exchanged and the numerous vows spoken. The feelings of how everything in their world seems to slow down when we are with our loved one.

Though, I beg to differ that love is not just those feelings. Love is universal, that comes in many forms. The bond between parents and their children is love, sharing toys between siblings is love and when you are attending to your sick friend, that is also love.

So, even if I have never experience yet my own love story, I am glad that I have enough love from those around me who loves me for who I am (and I  ain't). I wish when the day comes for the start of my own love journey, it will be a 'halal' one :)

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Leave out all the rest

                                       If my life has a emo soundtrack,this song speaks so much for me.

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sometimes, well most of the time, i tell myself

"you aren't good enough,push yourself, you can do better than this"

but then i will keep going back to my repetitive cycles of

"nah, nobody cares if i'm good enough or not"

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would you like a present?

Sometimes the only reason why I like giving presents was because its the only thing that I feel people like about me. It sort of comfort me that people still like me, with all the flaws that I have, even if it just because I like giving presents.Watching people who rarely talk to me or not close to me being happy with my gift is sort of my guilty pleasure.

That's why sometimes I feel upset if I don't have enough money to give out present, or when people didn't want to receive my present, because it feels like they don't even like me, for them to even refuse free gift (lol all gift are free right,this is so redundant.)

I don't know, but giving present is such a crucial point in my life.Maybe because I never received much so I tend to associate not receiving presents = not receiving love. So since I don't want people to feel what I used to feel, I will try my hardest to give out gift if I could afford it.I wish people will understand that they don't burden me when I give them, they are actually helping me to feel good about myself.

But at the end of the day, I will always like it if I give out one out of my own will, not when people asked it instead teehee :)

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