pencil

i used to write only using pencil. scribbling notes, doodling on paper, writing grocery list, jotting down thoughts in my diary. never a pen, always a pencil.

-because in a sense, im always afraid to leave mark; a permanent one, when you use a pen. a beautiful notebook can become ugly with my hideous handwriting, a deep thoughts can be seen without the ability to erase them. yeah, maybe i can scratch them out or using liquid paper, but it will still be there.

but a pencil,
i could always erase them. the thoughts i wrote, they are there, but i can always pretend i didnt think of it when i wiped them off. it give a sense of security, where i can always express myself, but never really spelling it out in front of my eyes.

ah, now i think its time i erase off all the entries in my diary. its pretty embarassing haha